Why are you doubting?

At some point in life we all find ourself faced with the unknown and the questions start to flood in.

The other day my heart was heavy and I ran to Gods word in desperate need of encouragement!

Like any good christian, I scrolled through the books on my bible app and opened the first one my finger landed on. The title was “Hope in the Lords faithfulness.” I sighed a deep sigh and though, “ah, this is exactly what I need right now!”

Then I began to read.

It was Lamentations 3 which starts out like this...

“I am the one who has seen the afflictions that come from the rod of the Lord’s anger. He has led me into darkness, shutting out all light. He has turned his hand against me again and again, all day long.”

Um, hold up for a minute! That’s not the encouragement I needed. In fact, the hope I was seeking quickly turned into questions and panic!

Oh my holly goodness, am I Jerusalem?!

Are Gods mercies truly new for ME EVERY morning? Is God getting tired of me? Am I going through this because God has turned his back on me?

Has that ever happened to you? 

You turn to Gods word and then your heart is heavy and full of conviction? Not the conviction that draws you closer to him, the kind that’s pushing you further away...the kind that feeds you lies about your Heavenly Father and about you.

I have memories of that happening since childhood! I would internalize the wrath of God and condemn myself. I’ve literally asked, “did God create me to go to hell? Because I can’t seem to measure up!”

If you’ve ever been there friend, keep reading!

Something different happened yesterday!

I ran and got my study bible! I wanted to read who the author was, what was going on during that time and what the true essence of Lamentations was.

I wanted to read Gods word and take away the truth! Nothing more, nothing less.

In that moment I realized that Satan was doing what Satan has always done...feeding me lies!

When we read Gods word, we should be aware that enemy isn’t happy about it. He doesn’t walk away saying, “oh Lisa’s having her God time, she needs peace and quiet right now.” I think sometimes it’s the opposite! He isn’t happy about it. He doesn’t want us walking in truth.

I’m learning the way I come into Gods word and the way I read it matters.

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God didn’t send Jesus to condemn us. He sent him to break the chains of sin and darkness and set us free. To give us life eternally. (Galatians 5:1-2)

 

“The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.” John‬ ‭10:10‬

Let’s see the real enemy here because friend, it’s not us!

I don’t know what you are facing today but God does. Sometimes the process is long and God may even allow some pretty tough seasons to come in our life. But that doesn’t mean he hates you or that he has turned his back on you. Friend, it’s opposite.

We get the choice, to believe. The blessing of hope.

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” Romans‬ ‭8:28‬

 

Dear God,

Give me the ability to see your truth, like a bright light breaking through the darkness of the enemies lies. Give me the wisdom, strength and courage I need to TRULY break free!

In Jesus Name, I am free, I am chosen, I am yours.

Amen