If every thing is meaningless, then whats the point?
I can almost remember the exact thoughts running through my head that day. I was only in the 7th grade and I was devastated.
A group of girls surrounded me, backed me into a corner near our school gym as a huge crowd gathered while they shoved me and called me names.
As a child I heard the saying, sticks and stones may break my bones but words would never hurt me.
What kind of lie is that? Words are powerful! In fact God says that the power of life or death is in the tongue and that day was the icing on the cake, of a long list of disappointments and lies.
I remember thinking, ok God, I’ve tried this your way, I’ve done what I thought I should but I don’t have another cheek to turn!
I don’t know if you’ve ever had a moment like that, a point in time where you decided you were going to try something different with your approach to life but the author of Ecclesiastes must have! At the very least, he is a student of life and I think there is so much power in his writings.
Today we are picking back up in chapter two. If you haven’t read my last blog post. Please take a moment to check it out.
Chapter 2:1-9 took me back to that time as a girl. The moment when I decided to harden my heart and change the way I lived my life. The author seems to have take a more experimental approach to it all, breaking it down into sections. He first test pleasure, then wisdom, folly and last in chapter 2 toil. Then chapter 3 is entitled “A Time For Everything.” That gave me a little sigh of relief.
We all have our own life journey, the paths we walk. Sometimes its a well thought out path, sometimes it not. God uses them all. They all have meaning and the opportunity to teach us and prepare us for Gods work, if we allow them to.
So can I be real with you?
Chapter 6 is why I am writing a few blog post on Ecclesiastes.
If you have followed me for a while then you may know some of my story but just in case you haven’t, let me try to sum a few pivotal pieces.
I was raised in church. Loved the Lord and had no doubt he was real. A lot of painful life experiences caused me to turn my back on God and I figured if this life is nothing but pain, why not do what ever the heck I want? Yeah…that back fired!
I got pregnant at 17, struggled to provide but gave it my all and honestly got my junk together more than I had in years past.
Still broken, I fell head over hills in love and got married to my husband at 20.
I brought a lot of baggage into our marriage and it has been a long journey to healing but I am so grateful for this journey and my amazing husband who still strongly stands by my side. God definitely made him for me and gave him the skills he knew he would need to help me heal.
We are an Army family so we move a lot. I’ve had many jobs over our 16 years of marriage. My last one was working online as a Beachbody Coach. I am still a coach but this past year I knew it was time for me to step away and truly evaluate some things.
I had started struggling with anxiety and depression the two years prior to making this decision and I knew it was time to get myself health and on track again. That and the fact that I knew God was plainly telling me to REST! Can I just say, that is hard for me to do. Still, although I couldn’t make much sense of it at the time, the pieces are coming together more and more.
I brought that up because during my years as a coach, I poured my heart and soul into what I did and God blessed it! I grew more personally and in my business then I ever would have imagined! Beachbody really rolls out the red carpet when you achieve great success too and the money was more than I had ever hoped I could earn. I finally felt like I was doing something great with my life, like I wasn’t just some statistic.
That being said, during the last year or two, it was very hard for me to find true fulfillment in what I was doing and that broke my heart!
On one hand I LOVED seeing people experience true change in every area of their life. On the other hand I knew that my heart wasn’t just to help people with health and fitness. I knew I wanted to go deeper with God and find out what I was created for.
Working an online business is very much about self promotion and please know that I am not against any of it because its a fantastic way to reach and help people while earning an income from home. It was a huge blessing and still is. In fact, I wouldn’t be the woman I am today if I had not said yes to coaching!
Yet, I keep having this tug on my heart.
My business was my ministry and yet, I felt I needed to step away. Needless to say, this year has been extremely hard for me. I mourned over my loss! Still I know in my heart its all for a reason.
That brings me to my title. If everything is meaningless, then what’s the point?
The author talks about all the things he’s done and what he has observed. In chapter 2 verse 10 he says, “ I denied myself nothing my eyes desired: I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my work, and this was the reward for all my labor. 11 Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun.
I want to dig deeper but I have already shared a lot today.
Will you join me in reading Chapter 2 and then share what verses stood out to you most?
Trust me, the deeper we dig, the better it gets! :)
My heart is to help people live the abundant life that God died for us to experience here on this earth. I am learning a lot more about what that truly means and I know that as we continue to dig in together we will have a greater understanding of it together.
I believe that although many things we can do or give to much weight to in life are meaningless because this life is not our end…doesn’t mean that life in and of itself is completely meaningless if we align ourselves with Gods plan.
I would love to hear your thoughts and your stories too. Is this helping you? Even if its just getting you back into Gods word, share that with me in the comments below or email.